今日拎起本ive 指南睇．．突然有了目標＞３＜好想讀電訊及科技工程高級文憑＠３＠正當我開心緊既時候．．電話就響起來了－．－

原來係呀爸打黎．．佢話元朗果間伯特利中學有中５學位．．要我”馬上”去報名－．－”（我彩你都傻．．我依家著緊屋企衫，唔通無啦啦我飛落街坐車去嗎－口－）我當然唔想重讀吧．．難得我依家改變主意讀ive，無啦啦又黎亂我思路＝－＝佢又係既．．口口聲聲話讀唔到中６中７都冇所謂，事實上日日都幫我問人有冇學位－口－（呢d咪叫做口不對心囉－０－）我都講左幾１０次我讀唔起大學了．．係都要我讀wo><係咪想我讀傻左呀－”－

呀爸又唔知果間學校既中５課程有分理＆文科，佢都未問有冇理科就要我飛去報名－．－就算有呀．．都唔知有冇a math吧

仲有就係．．我冇咁好氣再重讀返７科－口－難得我今年英文過到關wo-3-如果下年唔掂我咪玩完囉

其實有心讀既．．我可以讀完個文憑先，讀得好既再升大學都唔遲啦＠．＠

冇了..依家讀到中6,呀爸又唔比我讀,要我退學,有冇搞錯呀~

遠係我既事,我自己去果度住都得的,又講咁多原因話唔比,最後搞到係度罵交。

我真係好想讀呀;_;比佢搞到哭左好耐了..本來好開心的,依家又冇得讀了~

我依家諗緊..我用咩方法自殺好。死左又讀唔到,唔死又讀唔到,一樣。

點解我會有D咁既呀爸，邊有呀爸衰到有咁好既學校收都唔要嫁！！

我好想自己冷靜點喔．．但係我做唔到。我第一次氣成咁，根本就係冇道理既，我讀書關佢咩事呀，加上佢唔比既理由係一點邏輯都冇既，話遠WO，咁人地係外國讀書都有大把啦～我依家係HK讀都唔比．．愈諗條氣愈唔順呀！！

我望住張會考成積單，就諗：好了，你依家開心喇，我考得咁辛苦依家同我講下年再考過哂７科再試下有冇中６，我真係冇咁既耐性呀！！

我依家火起上黎．．我覺得我會讀到傻左都唔頂，但係有反效果都唔頂，係你唔比我讀書先搞成我咁嫁！！

我希望我怏點清醒過來吧．．聽日再睇返呢篇日記果時，我可以冇咁瘋了

聽日要去長洲退學了，好唔捨得呀．．

諗深一層，考番科中文都唔係唔好既，但我知道我呢年會好輕鬆，我唔鍾意呢種感覺

可能我正定係冇得讀書吧，身邊有一大班人搵方法搞到我冇得讀，一定係害我嫁啦，唔想我有好出路，佢地好黑心呀～真係

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我比我呀爸激傻左喇．．

好開心呀；v；我終於升到中６了＞V<搵哂成hk終於比我搵到間收我了；３；

我覺得自己同呢間學校好有緣喔＞３＜我去到只係得返最後一個位＞．＜而且我d成積唔係好好．個老師都話我唔錯－３－而且一口答應收我！！

依家最驚就係返學果陣要坐船．．唔知我會唔會坐到嘔白泡－３－”．．仲有要適應新老師＆環境＠＠

唔知套校服靚唔靚呢＞＜（都係唔好有咁大期待好d-.-．．）我好想試下穿有領上衣＆格仔裙既校服喔＞＠＜

經過搵有關學校資料既時間之後．．我腦海突然有好多問題出現左－０－”

＊我會暈船浪嗎；０；？　

＊套校服係水手裝，一般般啦－０－好睇過以前果間＝－＝”　

＊車錢每個月都成１２００蚊wo－口－雖然係唔使比學費，可以減輕下負擔

＊我要成５點半起身．．６點出門（都係第１次呀＞＜），學校４點鍾放．．要６點幾先返到屋企＝．＝我諗我要係車上溫書吧．．唔係冇時間－．－

＊返到屋企冇得玩電腦＞口＜

＊唔知d同學＆老師易唔易相處呢－３－，我好怕適應唔到果度既生活／口＼

我諗我會日日都累死先返到屋企；０；

　

點解個個人都升到中6..係我升唔到既;_;”好唔甘心喔..會考成積同學校的有好大出入

之前我一心決定左死都要讀到中7先讀ive,但依家改變了，我想下年考過會考，拎好點成積，之後再讀會計＆工商＞．＜我唔甘心我張成積單得果１０分＝－＝”

我要同自己講．．辛苦ma 一年吧＞＜目標係中文d 數學b，加加ma ma就夠１４分了／口＼我同爸傾過．．去私校補習，補完我諗有進步吧＞”＜總之之前我聽下d同學講．．補下習吧／．＼咁就唔會搞到中文都唔合格吧／﹏＼”

依家心情低落中．．好想自己係一個成積好既學生喔；＿；難道以前唔努力，就點都追唔到嗎；＿；？我有努力過的．．．但係遲左。

８月６日．．我要去醫院抽血驗身；０；我最怕就係打針了；﹏；．．我覺得我果一刻會係度大叫－口－．．．唔要呀＞＜我唔要抽呀＞＜我唔要打針呀＞＜．．嗚嗚．．．．

最近好大收獲，上網訂左好多件日本衫－v-”諗諗下．．唔知仲買唔買係元朗見到果條＄５００的連身裙好呢－３－．．我都想著咁好質料既衫喔＞３＜果條裙係用高級雪紡正的－３－真係好靚喔＞口＜

今日去睇醫生，呢個醫生哥哥好好人喔．．＊０＊

點算呀．．１２月中先有得接受治療／．＼果時我都暈死左了／口＼排期時間可以怏點就好了；＿；